I NEED A GIRL TO .......

Walking down the road today got me thinking how much I don't need this....stress iin my life.That don't mean I don't want it like damn but I choose not to.Not to crave that special someone,the one without whom I feel incomplete.

If I were incomplete without someone then that would mean that i would be kinda suicidal but I don't want that stuff,my religion forbids it,I'm supposed to be a christain by the way.

How the heck does something make you want it so much that you would do a whole lot of crazy stuff just to have it.Sex is like a drug.From what I know,you do it and you end it feeling kinda weak and wondering what you had just done *though I think this is when it's done under wrong conditions with a conscience still in place*

At a later date you find you wanting it all over again,the sight of some girl walking down the road send you thinking things that would make Jesus want to give you slap or better still a taste of what it feels like being nailed to a cross.

Talking about Jesus.I love that man.I love him for loving me.I love him for kinda feeling like me or was it he who gave me this feeling,hmmm.....I wonder.Leving his comfort zone to come down to earth and suffer and stuff.He lived a most simple life.Did some serious fasting and stuff.And at the end of the day was nailed to a cross.That kind love no be here oh.

The stuff I write are just words that come to me as I put hand to keyboard,I just hope they make sense to me and maybe someone.


I just though of leaving a couple of words on Michael Jackson;He was GOOOOD as in the greatest musician ever.If you know another please let me know cos I think it was he,but again what do I know?

I watched his funeral/memorial stuff and was really touched like I saw how creative and engrossed he was in his art.How his fans loved him and all.His performances,the stories of his experiences with real people.Even up to the rehearsal for his hither to upcoming concert;the feebless ,A man of 50 making great attempt to dance along side youg men in their 20's and 30's.

I watched his old videos and saw the way he moved when he danced,the way he got into his music that showed how much he really was in tune with the music,like the music gave him energy or something,like it gave him life.from "I want you back" through "thriller","bad","ghosts";I thought the dance in that video was really off the hook,up to "one more chance";with all his health problems and all,I heard his pain in that song,don't nobody ask me how but I love that song a lot.It made me fall in love with "Michael Jackson" again and reminded me why when I was a kid I would readily respond to "Who is your favorite musician?" well I don't think I need to answer that!

Good bye Michael! R.I.P

God bless you