.........We had met on facebook*at least on good thing I can attribute to being on fb* She had seen one of my videos that I made during one of those extremely boring browsing sessions.Immediately she had added me as a friend * or some day later,I cannot know for sure *
I had opened my mail that evening and found a request * but i'm always on fb ,how come I didn't see the request you ask? well leave matter for matthias,It's my story I can say whatever I want * . The first picture i had seen of her wasn't all that attractive.It was a dark image with a hairstyle that gave her more age.I had accepted the request.
I checked her info and found out we had one friend in common * my one year senior from secondary school * She was in a foreign country and she wasn't an ex-student of my sec school.
I browsed through her photos and found the other to be a bit more prettier but still not enough,then i had stumbled on one;It had her sitting in a kind of a lecture theatre where she had on a hairdo,that I liked for no particular reason and she looked younger and stuff...... I also remarked at the amount of acne on her face it was like that of a friend I know who was schooling abroad.I quickly made a comparison with pimples and living abroad.
That same day I met her online on facebook.We chatted a bit then we added each other to yahoo IM and then chatted for hours.I found myself liking her rapport and the way she simply flattered me was just too good to be true.She said my video was awesome,that she couldn't wait for me to relese an album * hmmm I thught music or stupidity album * .She was actually watching the video as we spoke and had shown it to members of her family *just her sister,but that could qualify as members now*
We got chatting almost everyday for hours on lenghth and i found myself getting fond of this girl and decided to leave facebook for her *afterall i can't be having two loves na,abi how una check am? *
The chats went on until one day when she didn't come on.I was frustrated and at that moment I began to realise how much I really like her.She came on the next day and from time to tim i would give hints of really liking her *though we had flirted a bit with words like "honey","dear",and "love" * She would justy reply passivel or sometimes say somthing else.I knew she wasn't that into me from then on.It was funny how I would like a girl I met on the internet so much that i sometimes defied my uncle and would loose sleep just so I could chat with her.
Time went on and i knew I had to be content with being friends only or I had to let her go because i really don't know how I can be friends with someoone I'd rather be in love with.The day I told her I had to leave her,it wasn't preplanned because I had wanted her so badly that I had been willing to make do with what i could get,but my mouth ran faster that my brain and I told her.it's funny how I can let go of someone I claim to love.
I know I was too fast to say my mind but I just couldn't hold back my feelings I Had to tell her.This is how the conversation went:
oj: hey u there? gfunc: yeah oj: o ok oj: wassup? gfunc: nada gfunc: just here oj: have u been here for long? gfunc: like 4 oj: my time? gfunc: 2H30mins oj: o ok gfunc: ago oj: wat have u been doin? gfunc: nothing really gfunc: just chilling oj: kk oj: kul gfunc: yeah gfunc: and you? oj: o....lemme see....woke up this afternoon..did some work...went to church nd came back gfunc: k gfunc: cool gfunc: you just cming bck? oj: fews hrs back gfunc: k gfunc: cool oj: yea gfunc: i guess easter is gonna be big for ya oj: big ke? oj: dunno ooo gfunc: k oj: yea gfunc: but y'all wil be cooking up some of em naijja dishes,right? oj: we always eat naija good so it'll make no difference anyways... oj: food gfunc: ah gfunc: k oj: yea gfunc: isn't it kinda expensive gfunc: ? oj: yea it is oj: but they bring from naija for us gfunc: who? oj: family back home gfunc: k gfunc: do they like send it or someone comes with it? oj: yea they do gfunc: aight oj: yea gfunc: send me some of whateve you'll be having then oj: lol...ok gfunc: like on easter oj: i hear gfunc: lol gfunc: that was not funny oj: wat? gfunc: what I said oj: ok gfunc: what phone do you use? oj: samsung gfunc: k gfunc: yuck oj: i kno oj: changin very soon gfunc: cool gfunc: can i suggest a nokia 5800 gfunc: ? oj: wz gonna get n95 gfunc: hmmm gfunc: any particular reasons? oj: gps nd al d other stuff oj: nd i think e68 also gfunc: ok gfunc: super cool oj: which one? gfunc: long as it's a nokia all is fine with me gfunc: A nloody 3310 oj: yup oj: nokia is da best gfunc: yeah gfunc: you can sa y that again oj: yup gfunc: you got any special plan sfor today? oj: nt really...goin to church later in the evenin gfunc: ok oj: yea gfunc: that's like holy saturday or something? oj: yup gfunc: ok gfunc: there's a .............. gfunc: certain talk I often hear gfunc: about the catholics being flirtilicious oj: uh? oj: wtf? gfunc: *that might not be a real word* gfunc: no need for cursing gfunc: pips say,and I've seen evidences bout how that could be true oj: u've seen? oj: where? gfunc: yeah gfunc: like almost all catholic churches I've been to gfunc: the youth are like something else gfunc: even the ones who occupy key position in the church oj: i see gfunc: don't know why I had to bring that up gfunc: you like M.I? oj: yea...y? gfunc: cos he's like the next best thing since coco pops oj: dunno coco pops but I love M.I gfunc: coco pops! the cereal? oj: ok...lol oj: am an aje kpaco gfunc: me too oj: lol gfunc: but I used to have this cable something and got used to the butty life gfunc: though I was quite far from living it gfunc: tv influences lives oj: yea...it sure does gfunc: like gfunc: it ruins them too oj: yea gfunc: yeah gfunc: I'm a living withness of that phenomenom oj: heheh...I can imagine...how did t.v influence ur life? gfunc: what can you imagine? oj: nothin gfunc: ok gfunc: my life? gfunc: well music,dress and talk oj: daz for eveyone gfunc: yeah gfunc: that's my life gfunc: the interessting ones are those of others oj: interestin ones? gfunc: yeah gfunc: but I don't think you should be hearing them oj: y? gfunc: I guess you should be holy on a holy saturday gfunc: not that I am gfunc: but I wouldn't cause your heart to sin either oj: ok...I don't want to sin at all gfunc: yeah gfunc: so don't go being curious gfunc: k oj: kk oj: wil not be gfunc: I hate when we don't meet up simultaneously oj: i don't meet up how? gfunc: online gfunc: I said "we" oj: how tho? gfunc: like i come online and have to chill a while before you come gfunc: or I don't know you r online gfunc: and then i have to leave gfunc: and then you have to stay oj: heheh....yea gfunc: and the when I come back you r already gone gfunc: but you don't feel the same way right? oj: i don't feel the same way how do u mean? gfunc: how do I mean? gfunc: hmmmmmmmmmmmm gfunc: ok gfunc: like i come online and have to chill a while before you come gfunc: or I don't know you r online gfunc: and then i have to leave gfunc: and then you have to stay oj: y did u repost oj: lol gfunc: to show you "how I mean" oj: kk oj: got u oj: yea...its sad tho...
(at this time I was gone for like ten minutes before.............)
BUZZ!!! BUZZ!!! gfunc: Play: (Magic_Eight_Ball) oj: SweetIM's magic ball says: My sources say no gfunc: SweetIM's magic ball says: You confuse me with someone who cares! gfunc: SweetIM's magic ball says: Dont count on it gfunc: SweetIM's magic ball says: Better not tell you now gfunc: SweetIM's magic ball says: Outlook not so good gfunc: SweetIM's magic ball says: My reply is no oj: na wa oooo gfunc: wat is wa? oj: ask me again gfunc: gfunc: wat is wa? oj: dunno gfunc: ok gfunc: thing is that I'm liking you loads and i don't know why I'm saying it but obviously * or at least I think * oj: oo u done...i wz waitin for u to complete ur statement gfunc: you do not,so I will tell you that I've taken a step by starting this writing.which means that in time I'll have to stop chatting with you .you say why? okay ,the reason is that when I end each chat with ya,I leave in a state of * say a crack addict looses his drug* with you I'm lifted high,I have an overwhelming euphoric sensation of joy *happiness whatever* and once I leave ya.I'm dropped even lower than I was beofore hte conversation began* like negative of the high* . I really hope I'm making any sense because I don't think I am but all the same.I just have to telll ya.I really should get in the process of getting over you .It's gonna be hard but It ain't impossible.For lack of words I will end this now and hope that sufficiently with thes few points of mine I have been able to...... ........ convince you and not confuse you that women selling rice in Oshodi market in lagos make more money that oil workers .Thank you! oj: hahahahahahaah gfunc: but I ain't kidding though oj: ok...seriously gfunc: I 'm real serious oj: u like me that much? gfunc: yeah,I don't know why gfunc: some of the things i say I actually mean even thugh they seem like jokes oj: but....that wz too quick tho gfunc: yeah gfunc: stupid ain't it gfunc: that's why I said I don't know hy oj: nt really...but wat i have for u is likeness gfunc: I know gfunc: that's why I have to quit ya oj: quit me gfunc: or I'll end up being real screwed ( hmmm and chopped too) oj: but can't we be cool friends? gfunc: I hope oj: we are cool friends already gfunc: yeah oj: exactly gfunc: I think th ebest thing would be to leave ya entirely though gfunc: i'M REALLY NOT THAT STRONG oj: u re nt that strong? gfunc: to hold a friendship with someone i'd rather thinks of me the way I think of her gfunc: you see gfunc: I hope you see oj: ummm oj: no i don't se gfunc: well I really don't know how to make it anyclearer gfunc: that's always been a problem with me gfunc: explanation bien comme il faut gfunc: explaining very well gfunc: sorry oj: ok...i understand oj: do u want a break from me dauduzone: lol oj: or u don't wish to talk to me again gfunc: I do WISH to talk with you gfunc: more than anything else gfunc: bbut not just the way I feel gfunc: now oj: o ok gfunc: i have no idea how long It will take before i get over you gfunc: so I'd best say gfunc: indefinetely gfunc: which could be like forever oj: o wow gfunc: yeah u can say that again gfunc: In about 20 mins I stop chatting I gotta do the cleaning gfunc: I think that will probably end our "relationship" oj: o ok...no problem oj: ummmm oj: don't kno to say to that oj: wat gfunc: so at this point i begin to say my goodbyes gfunc: so as not too prolong oj: wow.... gfunc: beyond the 2à mins gfunc: 20 oj: k gfunc: I'm really a sucker oj: yea u re gfunc: funny how I got into this gfunc: I think it's difficult to have female friends oj: just thot we could be friends gfunc: and not have a physical attraction gfunc: especially when they are as mignon * nice looking* as you oj: watever gfunc: yeah gfunc: I think I'll be going bck to fb afterall but I'll be more of an inactive participant there oj: u re really an ass gfunc: you could still check on if you want oj: seriously gfunc: yeah gfunc: I'm an ass gfunc: I always thought it was too good to be true gfunc: i'll always dedicate all my future vids to ya gfunc: unless ofcourse I find some other girl like you oj: nt necessary gfunc: who feels the way I feel gfunc: ok gfunc: cool gfunc: lol gfunc: take care of you gfunc: my 2weeks and a day old crush gfunc: do have a wonderful easter and a wonderful life ahead gfunc: I'll miss you loads gfunc: God knows I will oj: wow oj: thks fr everythin tho gfunc: thank you gfunc: I did nothing gfunc: nothing at all gfunc: you'll never know how much it mean that you appreciated my videos gfunc: at least the first ones gfunc: you will never know ( I began to feel tears forming in my eyes ) gfunc: for that I love you gfunc:lol oj: thk u oj: I appreciate oj: i really do gfunc: if I do then why am I letting you go gfunc: funny me gfunc: stupid me gfunc: these are just my last words of signing off gfunc: my story with the most incredible girl I know gfunc: I could go on for ever gfunc: but I have to discipline me gfunc: or i'll never leave gfunc: like all rules I do have an exception gfunc: I've made a rule but there just might be an exceptio gfunc: bye love gfunc: bye oj est en train d'écrire. oj: bye ( at this point I had to hurry away ,the tears were already dropping)